no name

He said my heart it is yoursWhether you like it or not No refunds allowed becauseNo matter how many tears I pullFrom their innocent eyesThey do not have the strength toWash away all of the Oil stains and finger prints orFill in the grooves where it once rested Your fingers gripped ever so tightlyAnd now that once thriving organThat you yourself enlightenedLies extraneous to all motionEmotion and excitementSitting up on a shelfAlong with the things that you left hereI’ll never forget dearThe way that I felt Just by seeing your nameAnd a return address from EastonBut now all of your writingsHave been lost in translationBecause I just can’t seem to make any senseOf any word you’ve spoken or wrote ever sinceI put down in writingWhat I can’t bring myself to sayBut I couldn’t bring myself to send themSo these words all remain in a pileAccumulating day after day In a drawer and on the floorNear the bed that I lay inAnd stare at the ceiling Because I think wayToo much to sleepI know that you think too much tooI wonder if you wonder if I think about you too

the ocean in motion

And just when you thoughtThat you hit rock bottomThe stone turns to sandJust like leaves turn in autumnRecluse you slip away againDraw into your own skinNothing but a body of sufferingMasked behind a grinYour eyes fool the massesTwo shields thwart a leerFor it is what lies behind themThat you truly fearYour front is so friendlyYour actions speak otherwiseReinvent the word liarTo disband all your liesSo much like the stoneThat disbands into sandYour world as you knew itIs all in their handsFor they chose for youBecause you chose to let themAnd now you realizeYou were better off

engulf

She is the most stunning woman
When the light is reflected
Off of her seemingly transparent skin
She’s beautiful and serene from the outside
Entering her you might as well sign away you’re life
She can bring you the peace of mind
You so desperately needed
But she can leave you gasping for air
Until you’re lungs give way sending you
Deeper and deeper until there is no escaping
What once took you’re breath away
Because of it’s beauty
Has choked you out of air
Out of luck
Out of time
The ocean she breathes on my skin
Reminding me to breath too
The ocean she reminds me How fine the line is between beginning and ending
The ocean she’s ever so inviting
I know her waves will crush me But I dive in head first

no name

As my head unravels
These thoughts they turn to thread
These threads they hold my eyes wide open
I’d kill to fall asleep
To drift away to that special place
Where everyone could be whatever they wanted
And loves as common as
The air that we breath
You say that you want a lover
That you don’t have to love
Now how could I help but regret
Every word that I said
I never want to see the like of you again
Days turned to weeks turn to months
Turned to years
We can’t live forever
But if we could we couldn’t
Live this way
My burdens
They feel like feathers
Compared to what you weigh on my mind
I know that I’m the one to blame
But you are what is keeping me
Keeping me awake
Your words they circle around my head
You never make a bit of sense
Just beat around until I guess
What it is you’re getting at
All I know for sure
Is things are the worst that they’ve ever been
You ask me how I’ve been and I scream
You say that you want a lover
That you don’t have to love
Now how could I help but regret
Every word that I said
I never want to see the like of you again

Coming To

Life is full of surprises. No matter what you have planned, how you feel at any given moment, or how you're attitude may be towards a certain someone, something, or idea, everything can change in a matter of seconds. This past year has been some of the most tumultuous lonely, stressful, and anxious months of my life. There were times where i would think to myself, "if i could only go back i would change everything." But within the last few weeks, few days even, I have finally realized that everything I have gone through and everything I continue to go through is shaping me into a better and stronger person. I never granted or praised myself with much worth, but recently I have begun to realize that I am a good person. I am worth it. I am lucky and even though I am as depressed and as lonley as ever, I am still better off than most people out there. I am stronger than I think. I am capable of doing anything I want. But in order to do so, I need to stop wasting my time trying to please people that couldn't care less what I say or do, and focus on those who really do care for me and love me.
Late last night and early this morning, I had a great talk with a great girl who I would have never expected would reach out and talk to me. She really got me thinking and made me feel a lot better about everything and I can't than her enough.
I am now ready to let go of my past. I am ready to move on and be happy. I am ready to focus on the important things in life. I am ready to get my life back together and push on to the next chapter, whatever it may be. I am ready.

better off

And just when you thought
That you hit rock bottom
The stone turns to sand
Just like leaves turn in autumn
Recluse you slip away again
Draw into your own skin
Nothing but a body of suffering
Masked behind a grin
Your eyes fool the masses
Two shields thwart a leer
For it is what lies behind them
That you truly fear
Your front is so friendly
Your actions speak otherwise
Reinvent the word liar
To disband all your lies
So much like the stone
That disbands into sand
Your world as you knew it
Is all in their hands
For they chose for you
Because you chose to let them
And now you realize
You were better off

no name

It was just another lackluster evening
So we decided to skip town
These faces begin to blend together
These places they turn to black and white
No direction, no plan of telling
Anyone about anything tonight

This night is our own as we lie
Between the sand and the stars
Ocean side, the soundtrack to
Words turning into motion
And explosions in the sky
Rain down upon us

We use each others skins
As blankets to keep us warm
You watched me go through the motions
Of another restive night
But no terrors can outweigh
The freedom that your still presence brings

This night is our own as we lie
Between the sand and the stars
Ocean side, the soundtrack to
Words turning into motion
And explosions in the sky
Rain down upon us

And just before the sun
Others began to arrive
The sandman circled around
No one had a clue
And we laughed

This night is our own as we lie
Between the sand and the stars
Ocean side, the soundtrack to
Words turning into motion
And explosions in the sky
Rain down upon us